Saturday, November 22, 2008

follow up on the sads.

Wow guys. I can't say thank you enough for your incredibly kind words and sympathy. I was not expecting the comments, calls, texts, gifts, and invitations each of you gave me. I was pretty overwhelmed yesterday by what wonderful friends I have. Thank you, again and again and again.

I learned a few things from this experience:
1. I love my family tremendously and still need them in my life.
2. I am surrounded by angels--friends who are in tune with what is going on and are willing to drop everything to help.
3. Miscarriage is hard, no matter how far along in your pregnancy you are.
4. The Lord watches out for me. The miscarriage happened in the best possible way and at a time that was, honestly, perfect.
5. I am so amazingly lucky to have a nearly perfect daughter who came effortlessly to us.
6. I'm uncomfortable with being sad. I repress my feelings, pretend I'm not sad, and do anything I can to fake that I'm okay. I likewise have a really really hard time asking for help. I don't think this is good.
7. Both of my MTC companions independently told me to turn to the scriptures. My mission was and still is incredibly important to my spiritual development.
8. Turns out a haircut does me right. (I didn't cut it all off. Pheh.)
9. So does Wii fit. And they're sold out everywhere (target, kmart, circuit city, best buy, walmart, and everywhere online) but Gamestop in Springville.
10. Service also helps me quite a bit. And sending a package from Art City Pharmacy to the MTC only costs $1.50.
11. I found out my husband is really sensitive and wants more children badly. And he wants camera gear, a honda lawnmower, or any firearm (check out his anonymous comment).
12. Catering at a wedding reception dominated by BYU students really boosts your self esteem. I haven't been that popular since ... well, I'm pretty sure I've never been that popular.

Thank you again, dear friends, for your support and love. Life gives us opportunities to grow. I hope I've grown over these last few weeks.



buttercup said...

Heidi, you are such a wonderful person. I am glad that you are feeling better. I am also glad that you know that you are surrounded by people who love and care about you and would do anything for you.

darcie said...

Dear Heidi--I am so glad that you are feeling less of the sads. It sounds like you have a lot of people who love you a heck of a lot and I'm sure that helps. I'm still thinking of you. Love--Darcie

P.S. Just wanted to tell you that I wish that I had your hair!!

Sharon said...

Oh Heidi I feel so bad to be a few weeks behind in your posts. I knew you were missing Drew but I didn't know about the rest. I am impressed with how much you have put yourself aside to focus on others, and in the process you were lifted too. Take care of yourself and enjoy the many blessings you have all around!

Sheli said...

Heidi, hope you are feeling better today! You look absolutely AMAZING! Wow girl, you are my hero! Thanks for sharing your sister with me for a few days. It was fun to have her here to hang out with. Keep your chin up. Things will get better with time. Put on some Christmas music, start wrapping some gifts and do a little Christmas baking....that should brighten your day a little. Then watch Mae as she gets so excited for Christmas! Take care!

SNSsoup said...

Good to hear you are feeling better. I saw Wii Fit last Friday at Toys R Us just after I read your "Sads" post- I thought of you. Good luck with your Thanksgiving dinner- I had Spencers family over two Sundays ago to celebrate Thanksgiving before we went out of town. I LOVE any reasons to sit down and eat a good meal with family, especially Thanksgiving. It was a shame though- we had 11 people over, and still had lots of turkey leftover that never got eaten. Since we were leaving in 5 days, most of my leftovers from the meal spoiled and were never eaten. Looking back, I wish I had had a meat grinder, then maybe I could have used the left over turkey to grind up like beef, freeze and later use in our meals. Ground up turkey can be so expensive! Anyhow, good luck and have fun!

Harmony said...

Heidi, I love you.

Kris and Kally said...

Oh Heidi...I am so sorry. I just read about this and had no idea. The sads suck, but you're one strong little lady, and I know you'll bounce back, even higher than you've bounced before. Please let me know if you need anything! Maybe some Kentucky sunshine will do you well! Hint hint! All my love! And Kris loves you too!